I mean, seriously, what did I ever do to deserve these five amazing, crazy people I am blessed to call my family?
Or what about the ridiculous, somewhat overprotective but nonetheless caring group of people that are my best friends?
How about this main role in Music Man? How did I get it? I don't deserve it, there are other people who could have done it. People with stronger voices that don't crack every time they go higher than a C#. I don't know why I got it, but I did.
There was a time I felt that I didn't fit in with my family, but know I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't in this family. I don't deserve this, don't deserve my friends or family or cats or anything.
So what on earth did I do to get them?
But I guess that's just it. I didn't do anything. And I never could, because I'm a sinner. It's only Something amazingly un-earthly that could have caused me to get this.
It's Jesus.
And that's what He does. He took our shame, and screw-ups, and every bit of sin and gave us things we could never deserve. Family that loves us. Friends that come to see your shows and stay for a half hour to talk afterwards. Main roles that you don't feel that you were good enough for.
Is this His way of telling us that even though we feel worthless sometimes, we are worth it to Him?
Even if we yell at our siblings and stomp around and get mad for no reason before shows or our voices crack during the really dramatic part of the song, we matter. We are worth it. Because Jesus loves us.
I don't deserve this, and I don't pretend that I do. But it's been given to me. It's a blessing, and an amazing one at that, so I'm going to live it out. Especially with time seeming to go so fast, I want to hold onto it and treasure every moment. Even the painful ones where I feel like nobody cares and the joyful ones filled with hugs and laughter.
I'm want to live every second like I mean it, like it's a special gift from God.
Which, I guess, it is.
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This is my first post of the new year! It's crazy that it's 2016 already. I was on YouTube the other day and I looked at the date of an old video and it was 2012, so I was like, "Okay, it's not too old, 2 years" and then I realized that it would be 4 years old by now...yeah.
My life has been pretty crazy lately with dance, Music Man (final show tonight, though,) and school, but in the next few weeks things will get less hectic and will [hopefully] settle into a more laid-back routine.
And now, koala, because I have no better pictures and no life.
